Saturday, August 21, 2004
happiest ?th birthday to miguel de leon. :) hope you had a spectacular day.
i hate jetlag.
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Thursday, August 12, 2004
sorry this is late. but happiest birfday to my daddy, navneet! you deserve all the greatness in the world. your pretty pretty pretty princess loves you!!!
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long time, no post. it's been such a long time since i've actually cared to write about the happenings in my life that i don't really know where to start. or end. or whether or not this run-on sentence of a problem will actually end at all.
for starters, i've definitely changed my way of thinking... for better or for worse (though i'm hoping for the former outcome), my values and way of thinking have drastically changed. maybe it had been sleeping inside me since ages ago, but because i'm this kind of person, i never truly got to realize all this until i had some time on my hands. being in japan, being some place "new" makes for tons of breeding ground for my mind to roam about. although i make a big fuss about this, i am actually sincerely thankful for this thinking time. i've been lacking that reflection portion of my life, and this summer, i finally started to reinnovate myself. through all this, i've realized the reason why i am unsatisfied with my life, why i think the way i do, and what i must do to make tomorrow better. being able to take actions is another story... but something tells me that i can. which, by the way, is reassuring.
i've also been having realistic dreams. you know the ones that you wake up from and you question whether or not the dream really happened or not? those. out of the many, one has already happened (several days after the dream), another is inevitably going to happen, and yet another, i wish would happen. i'm tiptoeing this line of surrealism and i'm not sure whether or not these dreams are telling me something or if they are just playing with my mind. either way, i've been taking them seriously. i know not to belittle dreams.
it may take a while until i sort out all the problems in my mind. if i don't make sense, then i guess i don't make sense. but i'm trying; i really am.
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long time, no post. it's been such a long time since i've actually cared to write about the happenings in my life that i don't really know where to start. or end. or whether or not this run-on sentence of a problem will actually end at all.
for starters, i've definitely changed my way of thinking... for better or for worse (though i'm hoping for the former outcome), my values and way of thinking have drastically changed. maybe it had been sleeping inside me since ages ago, but because i'm this kind of person, i never truly got to realize all this until i had some time on my hands. being in japan, being some place "new" makes for tons of breeding ground for my mind to roam about. although i make a big fuss about this, i am actually sincerely thankful for this thinking time. i've been lacking that reflection portion of my life, and this summer, i finally started to reinnovate myself. through all this, i've realized the reason why i am unsatisfied with my life, why i think the way i do, and what i must do to make tomorrow better. being able to take actions is another story... but something tells me that i can. which, by the way, is reassuring.
i've also been having realistic dreams. you know the ones that you wake up from and you question whether or not the dream really happened or not? those. out of the many, one has already happened (several days after the dream), another is inevitably going to happen, and yet another, i wish would happen. i'm tiptoeing this line of surrealism and i'm not sure whether or not these dreams are telling me something or if they are just playing with my mind. either way, i've been taking them seriously. i know not to belittle dreams.
it may take a while until i sort out all the problems in my mind. if i don't make sense, then i guess i don't make sense. but i'm trying; i really am.
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